I'm seriously beginning to think I have some kind of a problem. I always, always, ALWAYS end up doing this. I start a project, I get majorly excited and more than a little obsessive over it, and then once it starts going wrong or slows down or gets boring or no one else is interested in it or I find something else, I drop it and completely forget about it. There's only been a few occasions where I've actually stuck something out, but usually I just drop it.

In other words, I'm closing down TSC.

It's kind of hard to describe why. Part of it, yes, is what I just described, but another part of it is time. Even cutting down the "real" blogging time, and making this into a sort of faux-blogging "awesome" thing I've got going on, it's still too much effort and too time consuming, or at least it feels that way. As much as I want to share my opinions and cool things I find with you guys, it's just.. I don't have the time, or even muse, for the most part. Today, for example, my first day with a computer for more than a week and a half, I spent at least a few hours enjoying myself on the internet - checking my facebook, some blogs, comics, and youtube accounts, and the like - then by the time I signed onto my deviantart account for the first time in ages (I tend to avoid going on regularly, because it always takes up so much time, and I'm lazy, although really I should just not let it all pile up) I had more than 60 notices; and almost none of those were even comments on my pitiful artwork! It was all notices about other people's art and journals and just a handful of comments. That took up more time, and then when I finally got around to dealing with TSC, I had no energy left. And that's not really the mindset I should have, is it? If I'm not enjoying this, and it's starting to become more like a chore, then I really don't think I should keep doing it. I'm trying to spend more time offline, as well, so perhaps shutting down this site is a good way to do that.

And anyways, I'm starting to think I'm more of a follower then a leader, at least on the internet. Meaning, instead of starting my own blogs and websites and making my own fabulous art (not that I can! xD), maybe I should just admire and comment on other people's blogs and websites and fabulous art. Instead of trying to show other people the awesome internet, maybe I'll just enjoy it instead. And, after all, there need to be people out there who are rooting others on, instead of trying to do it themselves. And if I spend my time commenting on other people's blogs (and I've learned that comments really do make a difference and help keep people's spirits up; if you read something on a blog that made you think or laugh, you really should comment!) and such, then maybe that's a better use of my time. Besides, it's not like anyone really cares what I have to say in this blog - I'd be better off just commenting on other people's blogs. That sounded bitter, didn't it? I didn't mean it to sound that way! Oh well, take it as you will.

So. Basically, I'm closing down TSC because I'm not enjoying it much anymore, even though it's got a pretty layout, and it's taking up too much time, even though I'm not even putting much effort out. And in its place, I'm going to enjoy the interwebs and spend more time reading blogs and enjoying myself - so yes, Amanda, I'll still be being a creepy stalker on BCF! :3 I'm also going to try and be on the internet less in general.

My main residence is now going to be on my deviantart account, notaclevername, so feel free to stop by and say hello there. Like I said, I'm not very active on it, but I will eventually get to your comments! I'm also going to move my desire to spread the awesome that I find to the DA journal, so I might occasionally post there, but it won't be anything serious.

And lastly, you can always email me at aquarterpastwonderful@gmail.com if you ever want to talk to me!

Thanks to everyone who's stopped by and commented during my two or so month-long experience with blogging. It's been fun!

listening to: The Circle of Life by Elton John
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